Clark actually smiles as he's pulled in. It's not what he expected, the easy acceptance, the way that M actually gets closer after hearing that. It's... nice. Really nice.
"No, it's not-" but that's not quite right. "It's pretending a little. But I don't know how to not pretend and still be me. I guess I haven't found the way to be totally, 100% myself yet."
He leans into the hold.
"It'd be nice to know. But you're right about it being worth it. There're good things about being me. The me people know."
Almost feeling like a man possessed, he leans over and presses a kiss to M's cheek. It's mostly affection. And a weird kind of punchdrunk feeling of spilling this all out to someone he's just met. He doesn't feel like they're strangers. But it's still so quick his head's spinning a little.
"But maybe there's nice things about being the me most people don't know too."
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"No, it's not-" but that's not quite right. "It's pretending a little. But I don't know how to not pretend and still be me. I guess I haven't found the way to be totally, 100% myself yet."
He leans into the hold.
"It'd be nice to know. But you're right about it being worth it. There're good things about being me. The me people know."
Almost feeling like a man possessed, he leans over and presses a kiss to M's cheek. It's mostly affection. And a weird kind of punchdrunk feeling of spilling this all out to someone he's just met. He doesn't feel like they're strangers. But it's still so quick his head's spinning a little.
"But maybe there's nice things about being the me most people don't know too."